Thursday, June 28, 2007

Bye! Bye! Baby

One minute she's a baby. I blink and she's a "big girl".
Just feeling like time is slipping thru my fingers.

She'll never be a baby again. I guess I'm having a hard time because I'm now wondering if I'll ever be a momma to a baby again. Or was this my one chance?
Don't get me wrong, I'm content with one. My heart is full.
It's just got me thinking, that's all.

28 comments:

Steffie B. said...

Oh my dear friend.....if there is anything we can do to help you let me know. Have you checked out other countries and such?

You and Jay are so awesome.....I know God has a plan for you!

GWEN OATSVALL said...

ya know I got ya on my prayer list ... your are one terrific mom and God has a plan for your precious family ... it is hard to see them grow up and yet what a blessing that they do .... happy and healthy !!!!

Ms. Dragonfly said...

perhaps you are just not 'done' yet. Check out what dream is in your heart and then make it happen.

Gracie said...

God has everything planned out. Just wait you will see.

Stacy said...

*HUGS*

tracy said...

Yep, it happens just like that...you blink and then they are grown.

kris said...

Wow, she has grown up so much. Is your heart contemplating a second??! Have to admit, I'd be so excited for you guys... :O)

kerri said...

Someone has baby fever, this was how my number two started.
*grin*
I know about how hard it is seeing them grow up, my eldest just finished jk. yesterday, I almost cried. ((((hugs for ya))).

Janet said...

I completely get you! Really, I do. I think I will always feel that way, like my heart still has room for more.

new girl said...

Wow! She's still so little, it's amazing to see the juxtaposition, and realize how much she's grown.

Oh, Nikki, my unasked for advice is to start looking into things if you feel that tug on your heart even if you are not completely ready to start again. If/when the time is right to go forward, you will know -- you just will. I often find that once I start the process of searching, I am pointed in the right direction even if it's not the direction I originally intended.

new girl said...

...or even if I have no idea of the direction to go in at all!

Diana said...

I had a "tug" for about 30 seconds to get baby #3, hard to believe now but I really did. In due time things become more clear and your plan will become evident.

She's still your baby and always will be no matter how old she gets.

Beckyb said...

You have gotten a ton of WONDERFUL comments - I really don't need to add a thing - but I do want you to know that I pray for you daily - I pray that God makes Himself very clear to you and Jay. I want you to be parents again too and I would do whatever I could to help - want my list of grants????? Praying Hard over here!!!

gretchen said...

I'm exactly with you girl! Birthdays are fun, but not if it's your last one. Your next may not be from China, but from another place! Don't give up. Just start praying like mad. How about signing up with us and going to Haiti to get a blue light special? Let me know if you're in! All of our kids were "blue light specials" - except to us (and God, that is)!

Holly said...

They grow up so fast. But whatever happens is meant to be. And I know everthing will work out fine. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

Jewels of My Heart said...

I know how hard it is... big hug... You are still young and if the Lord has another little one out there somewhere for you, He will lead you to them.

eggrolls and chopsticks said...

Ahhh such a sweet photo.

Follow your dream and it will happen. You might not know how but it always does.
You are an awesome mum you will do it all again and then you will be asking yourself if you are nuts!

Lily's Pad said...

They do grow up in the wink of an eye, don't they. She sure is precious.

Mary

Jonni & John said...

I can totally relate, I am already thinking of a sibling for Sofia and we haven't even got her yet.

It's really amazing how fast they grow. Those pictures of Lily are A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E. She is such a cutie. How could you not want more after having such a good girl.

Hugs,
Jonni

Kathy and Joel said...

I like Ms. Dragonfly's advice. I would listen...hard.

Mommy Spice said...

I was looking through old pictures of Spicy Girl today in awe of the little baby she is...no longer. I was carrying her into a store the other day explaining to her that I would not be able to carry her much longer. Sniff, Sniff. They grow so fast.

Sophie's Mom said...

I know what you mean. We want to adopt again, but not sure if we CAN. Wish I could know one way or another, then I could accept we are done. Or... plan for another. It's just the not knowing for me!

They grow up so fast, don't they?

Tracy said...

You're an incredible mom, Nikki!

Tracey & Mike said...

Motherhood is so bittersweet. Proud that they're growing into beautiful little people, yet heartbroken to see your baby go...
You will know when it's time what path to follow.

theghelertertwins.blogspot.com said...

Oh how I know how you feel. My girls were just babies and now they're two! I don't want them to grow up. Not yet any way. We waited so long for them.....I want it to last.

LaLa said...

Awww...she is still little...I think we will all look back this time next year and think what babies they were : ) Follow your heart and your gut..you will find the right way.

Dannye said...

what in the world, I know I commented on this one...no wonder you were worried about me...it's like I don't exist on your blog, but I really do read it all the time...really!!!

I just wanted you to know...I'm here for you as a shoulder should you need it!! We love you guys!!!

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